Hup! Hup! Late updates :]
Tuesday, February 21, 2012 | 10:36 PM | 0 comment(s)
The updates are getting limited each week and yes, I realised people do come and read this blog but left disappointed since I am not blogging consistently anymore. I apologise on that part. Somehow, I just lost the touch of updating as I spend most of my nights flicking around my iPod, texting the Boyf and diving on my bed, finding myself in a dead sleep in a count to five.
I will try to update weekly, (well if you're lucky, I might update two or three times a week!) but no promises though.
The week was hectic. Most of the staffs on leave, some on site audit and well, the interns had their final sprint. I had to juggle between my existing clients (my lovely senior went on holiday in Genting. Damn it, I never been to Genting before. Note to self: Go Genting soon!), and a new client which I had done all by myself.
Somehow, I noticed that every company which come across yours truly, will have huge bombastic problems. Yeah, and yet again; I exceeded my budget hours for the new one. Sighs. Major potong stim I tell you. I feel ever so depressed somehow.
On a happier note, I celebrated Valentines Day with the Boyf. Yay! Our second time celebrating together and I'm indeed a happy girl everrrrrr :D Had our VDay dinner at Food Republique since everywhere is full and thank God that restaurant has that final place for us to sit. The Boyf managed to enjoy his scrumptious steak. Best everrrr, shall go back there to eat again. We both had to agree that the mash potatoes are nice. Biee, I found out something. Food Republique belongs to my friend's cousin. We could get discounts! *smiles with glee*
I had my first ever Niniq's cheesecake. Ohgawditsoocheesyweesy. I miss baking cheesecakes now. Oh, I baked for my cousin's birthday on Sunday. Boy oh boy! Cupcakes. I managed to do cream and chocolates. HEHEHEHEHEHE SO DAMN HAPPY. I shall try new things next time :)
Okay, I got to sign off now. I'm having a refresher course tomorrow and I don't want to go with the newbie. Yawns, a day not in office. Damn it, I miss my office now :(
PICTURE BOMB TIME.
Little kitty (:
Present to Boyfiee.♥
HAHAHAHA #narcistshot
The Boyf and his steak :D
Me Breaded Chicken :9
Niniq Bistro
Cheesecake :9
Me and Le Kitty.
CUPCAKES :D
LONG F LEG SPIDER :O
Grad photo I stole from Raechel's album
The Boyf and I ♥
Ps: Happy early 14months anniversary baby! I love you xoxo
Hmms.
Sunday, February 12, 2012 | 9:18 PM | 0 comment(s)
Sometimes, I'm left dumbfounded.
I really don't know what to pen down anymore. My life revolves around work, home, him, church and close friends. I'm torn apart; not knowing what's in store for me. I want to achieve alot of things, but everything seems to be impossible for now.
Doomsday is tomorrow. Hoping for the best, but I guess I'll be crying my eyeballs out after lunchtime. I'll be ever so moody that I'll lock myself up in my room crying till the next morning. I don't think I'll have the mood to eat or even watch tv.
I may look strong outside, but deep down I'm not. I'm on the verge of falling apart, yet no one knows. I feel tired. Feel so lethargic. All I want is to sleep, and not waking up anytime soon; wishing all the problems would flutter away.
God, why don't you answer my prayers? Like this, everything will be easier for me. :/
I hope I'll get good results tomorrow. Don't want to be a loser for life. FML.
Song: Is This All by Vaness Wu feat Ryan Tedder (One Republic)
Song: Is This All by Vaness Wu feat Ryan Tedder (One Republic)
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So, Andy ended his internship last Friday. Two more interns leaving this coming Friday. Decisions will be made tomorrow for some of them. To me, I can't do anything. I have to work to finance my study, so fuck it. I shall be awesome!
GOOD LUCK ANDY, TZE YING & ADELYN FOR YOUR FUTURE ENDEAVORS!
I had an awesome time working with you all. :)
Sunday, February 5, 2012 | 11:25 PM | 0 comment(s)
So, hi everybody.
Another week has passed and here's the update I'm supposed to give. Minus the fact that recently, I had actually penned down my thoughts about being an only child in the family, I'm here to give my modest update ever.
Work was fine. Had shocking stuffs happening on the first day of the week and well, I learnt something from it. I exceeded my budget time for the company I'm working on, due to the fact that I found stuffs in it. I exceed my budget time that my senior gave me for another company, because I found stuffs in it again. Maybe I'm just too kaypohchi that I find stuffs they're hiding. Wait, isn't that what all auditors do? No wonder majority wants auditors to die.. hah the irony.
Although it was one hell of a busy hectic week, I managed to have lunches and dinner with the boy. I realised I had been neglecting him ever since work started. This calls for a change, and yes I have something up my sleeves. A plan. A top secret plan. Heehee :P
Oh and I had lunch with the cousin and her friends. Funny, but the friend has the attitude that I don't really like.
Yesterday, I commentated in church. And someone did not come to support me... PFFTYOLANDACOUGHWONGCOUGH. The last time I commentate was like, three years back? So, I was so nervous that I fumbled upon my words. I hate it when that happens. It just makes me want to take a paper bag and cover my face while walking everywhere. That's just sad. I mean, sure the uncles and aunties would laugh at me. There wasn't any "Good job! Keep it up!" remarks anymore. It was just a "Thank you!". Maybe, I'm all grown up. These things are just for kids who are starting off life.
Well, one reason why I wouldn't want to be active in church is because I don't really feel welcomed there. In fact, if I'm there always and everyone sees me every week, it tends to be a routine and well, it feels like they'll be neglecting you in time to come. I'm the "insecure" person when it comes to company and that's like my weakness. So please guys, don't blame me if I rarely attend church. I do, but just not the day you attend.
On a side note, I dyed my hair. The same colour, the same hair dye, the same brand. Liese Bubble Dye's Chestnut Brown. Smarter than before, I left the dye on my head for like an hour plus; till I read the reviews on the net saying "DO NOT LEAVE DYE ON FOR MORE THAN 30 MINUTES". I'm like motherofgod. Ran to the toilet and wash off, didn't really like the colour just yet because it wouldn't shine under pure light. But now, me being happy; my hair is brown under normal light, sunlight and yellow toilet lights. (Y)(Y)
So, that's all for now. Shall leave you guys with a few photos and a video of my kitten jumping over the barrier I made. Nasty little bugger. Heh. Here's wishing you guys HAPPY CHAP GOH MEH and enjoy your remaining last day of Chinese New Year 2012! Please crack the crackers at 12 sharp and shut thefuck up after that. I need sleep, for heavens sake. Toodles~
Brownie the cat.
Crackers. Dong dong qiang!
Brown :D
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Love this boy loads. He always make my day :)
Only Child.
Monday, January 30, 2012 | 9:28 PM | 0 comment(s)
Only child. That's the only two word that I seriously hate to refer myself to. 
Like seriously, dafuq?
I don't see myself as anything described above except for my parents love to be paranoid of me going out till late bla bla bla. See the highlighted word of love. Well, its kind of my fault in the first place for them to feel this way. It's because back then when I was in lower secondary, I kind of like lost their trust on me going out because of my
I don't see myself as a spoilt brat because I don't get anything that I really wanted. I wanted a cool handphone, I didn't get it until like I was in college where I bought my FIRST-OWNED handphone; K770i which dies on me everytime when I drop it or embrace it with water. Previously, all I got was
I wanted a laptop ever since I was in Form 3, I couldn't even get it till like 2009 when my Mum had spare cash in hand. It's because I have entered college, they bought me a netbook HP Mini 10, which I can 偷 笑 because it lasted me this long. Netbook. People could afford those rich ass mf laptops. Ugh.
My parents don't manja me, although back then when I was growing up; they used to buy me toys. For the fact that some of the toys went missing, (I bet they have legs or something) I still am not a manja kid because now, I can't even get what I want; lest say a car.
Now at the age of 20 going on 21, I feel the pressure. I feel the pressure of being torn apart. I am not an ordinary only child who gets the silver spoon treatment. No one actually quite understands how I feel at times. Only a small circle of friends, or maybe even just a dot knows.
I am restricted in financial terms. I had to back out from studies to work. I have to settle financial debts and monthly expenses. I have to fend for my own studies. I want to get a car. I want to get a degree. Finance wise, I'm not up to par just yet. Even though I earn a small meager sum each month, I still look forward to give cash back to the family.
Why I want to buy a car? It's because there are three drivers in the house, one car. The Volvo had already worn out. The Saga is as old as me. Imagine we, using the Saga in the long run; somehow it could fall apart due to the ancient age, right? But all Mum could do was reprimand me on my idea of having it. I was just thinking of buying this, for the family. And happily, my Dad said he wanted to relive the Volvo. Like, dafuq? Insurance and road tax for this ancient car seriously kills.
I want to get a degree so that I could earn more. Right now, I feel so torn apart; not knowing what to do next. After those war on words we had just now, it left me thinking; does my family really understand my good intentions? It's not that I'm not helping or anything, I did. I paid for this month's bills willingly out of my red packet collections. Isn't what thoughts that counts are all about?
What my Dad said on Saturday really hurts me alot. I ended up in tears all the way to church because of it. Seriously, from my point of view; I should be thankful that I have a job in hand. I should be thankful that my boss accepts me for where I am right now, even though I have yet to complete my course. I should be thankful that I'm learning the traits right now this instant, instead of slacking in studies and not doing anything. There are so much gratitudes, praises and thanksgiving that I want to give to God. I could even 偷 笑 for getting a job in hand. Nevertheless, you will not be contented until you humble yourself down in life.
Think, Christine. Think. Don't fall down when life is giving you shit.
